feel really down today. i know you’re moving on and it kills me. trying to be happy for you is impossible and you know me so well, you notice my mood drop.. i just don’t want to make you feel bad for moving on, i want you to be happy. but i want to be happy too.
so i ruined things again this evening. everything was going so perfect and i thought we were finally back to how we were, i guess not. i’m sorry.